Oh Boy!

Looking ahead at life and the big moments that are expected to happen within this next year I get kind of worried.
I'm not gonna lie.
There are some huge decisions and events that are going to take place by this time next year.
I'm sure there will be ups and downs along the way.
But just thinking about it all makes me anxious and somewhat stressed.
I try not to be a stressed out guy, but there are sure a lot of things that might and probably will happen sooner rather than later.

All of these things (graduating, working a "real" job, finding that "real" job, possibly marriage, oh! and don't forget the internship that I don't have lined up) were weighing heavy on my mind today.

But then I started remembering all the Scripture that I feed everyone I know who gets worried: Romans 8:28, Philippians 4:6, and Hebrews 13:8.

So no matter what "big" things are about to happen I know that my God will be in control.
He has it all figured out, even though I don't.
I have to keep on telling myself that I must decrease and He must increase. (Jn. 3:31)

Just Can't Pinpoint It....

Sometimes I wonder if I am doing something wrong because it seems that in this season of my life I am not "growing"...Spiritual growth I mean.
I've been reflecting on the last week, month, and year and for some reason I can not find a "measurement" of some sort of Spiritual growth.
It simply seems to not exist.
Does that mean I am not growing?
Have I grown stale? Apathetic?

But as I write this I start to wonder if maybe the reason for this stunted growth is because I have been without a true fellowship with a community of believers for the last year.
Since the community group that I once shared my life with has diminished it seems that my growth has gone down a pit.
And with that community group went genuine service I feel like. Since that group it seems that my service that I try and offer the world has been self centered and does not come from a genuine love for people.

These are just some thoughts that have been running through my mind the last couple of days.
just thought i'd share my honesty.